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Name: Jonathan
Age: 23
School: SLU
Hates: Liars
Likes: Open-minded nice caring people
Alight I waited to long to do my work.... but I only get my best work out of myself at the last minute.... Late at night and my mind seems to generate better ideas... but also think about things I don't want to think about a lot of times. Guess I won't really sleep tonight
Ok... had work as usual... had to listen to one of my co-workers tell me lies about his life, all day... Guess he feels like he has to make things up to impress me, he kind of looks up to me... I came home watched a movie and thought it was pretty good... Chaos started when my parents had to sit down with my sisters and talk to them about who they are allowed to hangout with or even be friends with. I rather go into details about who they can't hangout with through message.... Things would not have been so bad if one of my sisters would get it through her thick head, not to talk back or try to get the last word in... My dad got seriously upset with her disrespect... He almost seriously lost his temper and my dad never loses it... He is always calm and quit about things that upset him. I hope I never have a child that has a lack of respect. Everytime I think about how much morals and respect have declined over the generations, it makes me want to move to another country. Anyway just going to stop here before I go into my feelings on the issues within this country...
My mother woke me up with loud music today... early too... had work all day... Some basketball team cheerleaders, Hornets Basketball, were promoting their team... They were giving out signatures and taking pictures with a few people... they wanted me to take a picture with them... so me and another guy did... That the only interesting thing at work today... Went out to eat with mom and one of my sisters... came home... that all for today.
Not much happen today... my best friend had a bad day though so hope he feeling better... Just watching TV and doing HW...
Thanks to all who gave me their wishes.... and thanks to someone who wished me happy Birthday about 10-15 times lol... Today was alright... had class but didn't have work so that was good... went to eat at Texas Road House... had cheese cake when we got back home and that is about it for today...
My computer is having issues... still trying to fix the problem so I'm not really able to type a long message... Anyway it my b-day tomorrow... kind of wish I could just stop aging now....and now the screen light went out again so this is it for today.
Had work today... all day. Came home and talked to my mom... we mostly talked about my sisters and some of the things she is worried about their future... Talked a little about me and random things... watched tv and studied... this weekend was such a bore.
I think I should have just gone to bed early, but wanted to play video games for a little while... I had to work all day and some jerk decided to go complain about me... He made up some BS story and went told some of my bosses hoping to get me in trouble I guess... Nothing happened to me other than I had to get talked to. I'm so sick of having to deal with people who are low lifes... On the way home ended up changing some kids tire... that was my one good deed for the month... all used up now... guess I'm going to sleep now...........
Got up early today to study for a test... also got to talk to my favorite... lol So got to class took a test then skipped my next class to finish the HW that was due... Checked My E-mail of friendster, facebook, and myspace... but my myspace had something interesting sent to me... Got a message from someone I have never met or known before... said he wanted to kill me... Of course the only reason he left as to why was that he thought I was ugly I guess... So checked his profile and I don't know anyone he does.... and he lives in Mexico. In his pictures he looks like some kind of terrorist holding his gun or someone who is about to rob a 7-11... I don't think he is to smart though seeing how he misspelled almost every word he typed... looked like a 3yr old wrote it. Anyway that probably the only interesting thing that has happened today.... I goofed off at work and now have to go back early...
It is 12:30 and still have so much to study... Why can't I force myself to focus anymore. I always know what I have to do but can't seem to keep my eye on what needs to be done.... Even now while studying my mind wonders off... Feel like a caged bird right now... Then I also start to think about ways I might be able to make some good money, of course can't seem to think of anything legal that would work right now. So much to think about, so much to do. I wonder what things will be like for me a few years from now...? So much will be different, best friend will be married and probably having kids soon after... even though he said they plan to wait. I'll probably still be doing schooling... I tired... starting to reach that point where I am about to start typing out more random and deeper thoughts and feelings here... trying not to... but I can not go to sleep yet I have to study.......
Nothing much today, went to classes, work, and got home to study and sleep. But I am noticing a lot of young people asking for me to be their friend on friendster... not going to say no, but just seemed a little strange... Can't wait for this semester to end maybe I will have a little more free time during the summer...
Didn't write much yesterday... and not a lot to say about today either. I went to school but accidently fell asleep and missed first class. My third class was canceled, or it would seem since the teacher didn't show... so I went ahead laid out in the sun and stared at clouds till my fourth class. I still like to make shapes out of them... lol I fell asleep there to for a few minutes. After the last class went back outside and stared at clouds some more... I found myself envying the clouds... wish I could be that free, go where ever I want, just free like the wind. No worries, no job, no school... O well guess I'll have to just work until I can buy my freedom... I need to be more careful about falling asleep in the sun... just a little burned but it could have been worse. Got home talked... and then distracted myself with video games and didn't get as much work as I would have liked to get done. But all and all considering today wasn't a bad day... Now to just make it through the rest of this semester and summer semester...
Forgot to post a blog, but don't have enought time towrite a big one. Nothing big happened yesterday anyway... so write more later.
I almost forgot to post... well I had to go to work today but midway through shift decided I wanted to go home... I was honestly feeling like I was getting treated unfairly by people and life... so I took control and gave myself a short shift. Of course I get home and end up cutting the lawn... so much for relaxing... I didn't get any studying in today... managed to distract myself some how. Made brownies for my family and watched a movie with my mom... then me and my mom talked about one of my sisters who is just well... if you want to her about that mess I'll tell you later... it isn't anything great just usually bull... think my mother finally understands that what I am doing to myself with school and work is not healthy... at least mentally. It seems easier to bare when you know someone cares. Anyway felt real happy today cause...(to be continued) rofl
Crap... I found out that I miss heard when I was supposed to pay for my car insurance and now it is late... (sigh) I have never been late on paying anything... I realize now that I am seriously falling apart. I think all this work and going to school 5 days a week is wearing on me... Of course I knew that almost never getting a day off from both would have an effect on me... but I thought I could last longer than what I am. This summer won't be any better... and the fall I will be once again in same situation that I am in now with it all... I just have to keep pushing through it. Aside from stress, lately I feel like people are treating me like I am Mr. popular... I don't know why... Anyway spent the whole day at work. Just answered the phones pretending to be one of my friends and making people think that they were weird or something.... was just saying stupid things while people thought it was them. well guess that is it for today... O found out that I will have 2 weeks of vacation by the time I plan to go Singapore, which is good... I am really looking forward to that trip and ... meeting someone for the 1st time in person.
When will I ever catch a break. Had to get up early today to cut my neighbor's lawn, which I just don't feel like I have time to do anymore. I finished that and got to talk to Qinghui for a while, but was kind of late on leaving. Not her fault, mine for not forcing myself to get off. Really didn't want to. Got to class but wasn't to late... drove fast. Took a nap in between class. Got out an was rained on a little. Had to fill up my gas tank which always makes me sad seeing how over priced it has become. So here is where my day gets real annoying... I'm driving down the interstate and out of no where on of the rubber seals near the windshield just flew off....So I'm like wtf! (sigh) That is just great... I get home make a sandwich and then go to work... work sucked as usual... Got some new guy who kept bugging me to tell one of the other guys to go sweep... new guy is 2nd highest person in store.... So he came up to me and asked me how I liked working at lowes... LOL!... I told him it was just a job and of course "Mr. I love my job to much" got pissed... started freaking out because I didn't lie like everyone else... Well I was just glad that got him to leave me alone. Most of the time I was there I spent joking around with my friend Brett and playing with the forklift. I like to do dounuts in the store.lol that and slam the into the carts with it... Sometimes me and the guys will race them or play chicken... Got home took care of princess, talked to my mom. Went and took a shower and then talked to Qinghui again but I feel like I might have annoyed her... with certain questions.... I don't know... I am to curious sometimes.... so listening to music right now thinking about what the hell I am going to do about school this fall... and just what I will do with the rest of my life. Between school, work, and life I feel run down.... I need to stop typing...
I don't have much to say for today. I confused on what to do, it seems that I will have to go 5 days a week again this Fall semester. This means a lot of driving again. Oooh life is never on my side it seems. Sometimes I feel like I am horrible about making choices... Had a German quiz today 3 actually. My teacher always feels the need to go nuts with those. But 3 in one class period that is just my luck... figured I would stick it to the man today though... I cheated on them. haha I know not real honorable but I didn't feel like I had any choice. After my last class I went to go sleep in my friend's car... ended up feeling like I was getting cooked in there even with the windows down. I got back home talked to my favorites... ate... got nagged to do things I didn't have time to do... ate cookies, ice cream, and some candy... studied a little while eating snacks...........................Not to much of an exciting day maybe I should go outside right now and do something nuts just to spice this post up a bit lol. Hoping a certain someone is having a better day at work..
Forgot to post yesterday, wasn't much to post I guess anyway... So I was sleepy today, lol, but that was my own fault and I enjoyed staying up talking... so no harm done. After classes were over I went and ate lunch at Wendys, which was not good at all. I was reminded as to why I had stopped eat at the one in Hammond. I got home and fed Princess then talked to my mother for a while. I got to work today and hide for about an hour, rofl. I ran into my grandparents at work and helped them find what they were looking for. Talked to them for a while too. I finally went and did some work after they left. But me and one of my bosses just joked around the whole time. I was messing with him about how his wife tricked him into getting her pregnant. She had stopped taking birth control pills and didn't tell him. haha... Well got home and now about to go to bed so... till tomorrow.
Ok so I am pissed off now... today I find out that I am getting back $800 back from taxes. So I get excited cause that would be really good for me. Well a few minutes a go my mother comes into my room with a big smile on her face and says she got bad news for me... first thing I say is "you F*ckd up my taxes didn't you!" I knew this cause she was mad that she wasn't getting back anything. Well yeah she did, now I am only getting back 300 while she is getting 500 of my taxes. Why she thought I would be ok with this I have no idea. I tell her I am pissed yell at her and then she tries to plee her case... I told her if she need the money I would have given it to her and she trying to tell me that thats not the case and whatever I just done typing about this issue.... So yesterday I said I want to change the world, I think about it all the time. I have these thoughts when I see how people throw trash on the ground or after listening how someone got murdered. Always seems like criminals get off way to easy and the government in this country never does anything to actually help anyone but themselves. Alright I am not in a good mood so I am just going to stop for today... sorry.
K so I missed yesterday... err.. sorry. Last night I stayed up a bit to late, but I really didn't want to stop talking to Qinghui that soon. I woke-up at 7:30 AM to be able to cut my neighbor's grass but then remembered that it rained all night. To wet to cut. So then I said to myself "ok I'll just get a little more sleep" which I needed. But I over slept again never got to talk to a certain person I figured would be on at that time. But at least I got to talk before I went to bed. So thats good. Was 5 minutes late today for work. errr... Had a lot to clean-up and do today. Also had the usually, people acting like asses today. Spent most of the day entertaining my friends at work by joking or making fun of how stupid the people in there are. Agreed to box friends of mine next time I have time to go see them. So after a day of goofing off went to mall and picked up sisters came home ate ramen noodles and a sandwich. Haven't done much since I got home.
So I didn't sleep last night and I am about to go to sleep but wanted to post before I go. I finished all my work but found out I didn't actually need to do it so soon. I manage to stay awake all day and as soon as night came I got my energy back. I'm so happy I got to talk to Qinghui today. Made a new friend Shumei, got to know her for awhile, and talked to Setsuna. I didn't eat anything great either today. My internet went out today for a while and I was like arrrgggghhhhh! but it came back after and hour or so. I got to finish my enrollment today... glad that is over, but I am unhappy with how my classes got setup. So guess that is the extent of my day need to go sleep so I can get up early enough to talk for awhile.
Alright so today I got up and finally did the online advising that I should have done weeks ago... I still have so many thing that I have to do and I don't know how I am going to catch up with all of it. So it was raining really bad today and my windshield-wiper needs to be replaced... I'm not going to even explain what that was like... if I did you'd probably be mad at me for driving without being able to... but I made it to school... alive and was seriously late for clinical psych. I had to sit on the floor (>_<) got through with that and decided to go study for a test I thought I had... I was falling asleep the whole time I was reading my notes... then I find out I don't have the test today...WhAt! Class ends I drive back home ( which I forget to mention is a 45-55 minute drive). My cat comes to greet me like she always does, cause I'm her favorite lol. So we go inside and I make a quick sandwich and leave for work... finally make it back home at about 10:30 PM talked on MSN for a few but have been staying appear offline because... well if you talk to me than I have told you. Read over my abnormal notes but I don't think I am ready for this test tomorrow and I am still doing this damn paper... 4:39 AM right now... I am just so stressed out. I'm sorry this is not a joyful post... but just staying honest... I'm just happy I have a few people that care and thats enough for me to get by. I need to get serious and pull myself together no matter how drained I am. I'm hungry...